so, i started a whole long post (last sunday), and i just deleted it because blah blah blah..
in short, i'm taking a break from this blog. i feel a little selfish in doing that, mostly because there's a lot happening in my inside-world that i could write about and maybe you'd like it, but ya know, that's kinda the thing right now.. this journey i'm currently on feels really really personal and i think a big part of that is me learning to feel less obligated to everyone else, whether that obligation comes from love or guilt (usually i think it's a hard mix of both)..
i'm kind of taking a break from mainstream life in general.. hidden away in a snowy cave (cave= really beautiful home with warm baths and soft beds :-) high up in the mountains, taking time to read and go to yoga and wait to hear the Universe and her next move. As glorious as that sounds, is has also been almost heart-crushingly terrifying (we RELY on our plans and lists and knowledge of what the future holds and IT IS SCARY when we allow the future to become totally blank) and lonely and trying. everything i've talked about, written about.. trust and belief in a bigger plan, faith in Great Love.. i am being challenged to put all of that into action.. and by action, i mean, do nothing and wait and listen. and friends, it is not easy. who knew rest could be as much work as work. i keep trying to make plans, scramble together some idea of my future, but it just gives me stomach-aches and tears, and so, i'm seeking stillness and courage and a quieter mind..
that's enough for now. when i'm back on the scene again, in life and otherwise, i'll reappear on here as well..
i can't imagine that'll be a time too far away, really..
and when i reappear on here, i envision some changes in this blog.. evolution, my friends, evolution..
til then.. be yourselves, seek gratitude and stillness, and DON'T TAKE YOURSELVES SO SERIOUSLY, jeez!!!
(i fell down in front of a car at a stop-sign today. enough said. :-)
big love to you all
x
Chris
