The Illusion of Perfection. And Other Stuff.

Maybe this will be a short post, it's just something I've been thinking a lot about..

What if.. everything.. right now, just as it is.. is perfect.
Exactly as it's meant to be. As it needs to be.
Perfect.

Would that knowledge make you angry? Would it set you free? Both?

What is perfection anyway? We all long for it.. strive for it.. make it our end game.  But I'm starting to wonder if this abstract idea of perfection we're all scratching around for is a mere trick, a false concept, an illusion.  Perfect, as we generally know it, is always a 'future' concept.  It's something we look for, long for.. wait for.. and it's utterly and entirely unachievable.  At least, by its traditional definition, it is.

But what if we're looking at it all wrong.  What if perfect does exist, and we're experiencing it right now.  What if perfect just means the natural state of things, the world as it is, everything moving and breathing alongside each other and together, all of the bad and good and ugly and magnificent.. all of it.
Your life... my life.. right now, exactly as it is, is perfect.

I really believe this.  Or, at least, I'm starting to really believe this.  Maybe I just need things to make sense, and in the most roundabout way imaginable, the only way for this crazy messy nonsensical happening world to work for me is if I stop wishing for it to be something else and just let it be what it is.. which makes it perfect, right now.

Today I heard someone describe the ego as a zoom lens.. our own personal egos want to focus so hard on one or the other small detail, causing us to completely lose the bigger picture. but if we see past the ego and widen our viewing lens, we realize that everything is happening as it should, all of the ebbs and flows, we face the fact that we will never totally understand it all, and we accept this with grace and deep breaths and that inner peace that comes with letting go.

Life has been hard lately. And it's been hard for a lot of the latelys that came before this one. And I've been waiting and waiting for that day when it will SURELY get easier. This morning started out angry because it was such a hard one and overwhelming and man I honestly just felt like FUCK YOU Universe, I am DONE, but then I wondered if everything is exactly as it should be and I took a walk and I zoomed my ego lens back out and I ate some good food and took some deep breaths and realized that the only thing I really really control right now is my inner peace.  And man, nothing can fuck with that if I don't it.  

I'd like to be done with hoping and waiting for things to get easier, choosing instead to chill in the midst of it all and enjoy a quiet and calm inner world.  Ultimate trust.  Everything is as it should be.  Everything that happens to me.. everything that happens.. all of the hard stuff, and the good stuff too.. these are the ebbs and flows, the perfect and natural movements of the Universe.  And it's not that I turn my face and accept these things passively, letting them be things that happen to me (making me a constant victim).. no, I turn to these things and I look them in the face and I become a part of them, moving with them, laughing and loving and listening and finding the deepest comfort in the knowledge that everything, just as it is, is perfect.

That's all.  Those are my thoughts for now.

x
Chris